Napa: 94 degrees
Annie: swimming in Auntie's pool
Dinner: BBQ

I got homesick yesterday and decided to drive the two hours back home for the weekend. I still get a full two nights in since
I don't have class till 5 pm on Monday. Which is just perfect, I think a dose of Dug and a temperature shock of jumping into
that freezing cold pool will hold me over for another month. But other cravings might have me coming back for more and more.

I thought that

this wouldn't hurt a lot,
I guess not.


I am rather frustrated with myself. And right next to frustrated is confused - thinking I used to want one thing and now I want the other. Or maybe I am just being selfish. I am selfish. I blame this on being the younger sibling though...always wanting to play but never having the company.

Maybe I am a fool. Please don't play me as a fool. My heart broke on the drive home today as if I was leaving a major part of my life behind. Not feeling wanted and feeling left behind was the worst part too - next to listening to the melancholy voice of the Heartless Bastards draining my ears on I-5.

Hopefully, I am not a fool.

objectives:

try to keep my room clean

don't sleep with my textbooks on my bed - not so becoming or welcoming

always hang up my clothes

mail a package

get my vacuum back - maybe breaking a heart on the way out

have a beer, play pool.

and eat better (e.g. not going out to eat like evers).